By dead I mean not breathing and no heartbeat. It took me a year to remember that I felt ,saw, experienced nothing. The whole thing bummed me out even though I had bought in to what the teaching is before it happened. I started not caring about anything. I think I hav come out of the depression and now talking about it might help.
It says in the bible that the dead are conscious of nothing so why feel depressed because you expected to see visions of some sort?